In love with…..!

In the cab, I was looking out of the window, if you were there. I saw the birds flying around the green coconut trees under the clear blue sky, the sea with beautiful sceneries; the air was heavy with emotions and so was my heart. Suddenly, I noticed that red gulmohar flowers are blooming on both sides of the roadway. However, I couldn’t see what I was looking for. So I decided to give a rest to windows for a while.I remember, I went to Delhi last year during holi festival. I visited JNU campus and we met after a small gap.  The campus was full of flora at bloom. It’s strange that I never noticed you for so many years, but then when I met you I couldn’t help but love you. I admit, all these years, I have never stopped thinking about you.

Sitting in the cab was listening a ghazal ‘अपनी मर्ज़ी से कहाँ अपने सफ़र के हम हैं, रुख हवाओं का जिधर का है उधर के हम हैं…’  I was totally lost in song and all of the sudden song that I have known for years have a whole new meaning. It took me 14yrs back to my school days when we met for the first time. I remember the first time I saw you and fell in love with you. I didn’t tell anything about the feelings and affection I had for you. This love I have for you – it’s hard to describe, yet easy to feel. I forget everything when you come into my mind. I remember, school days was about to over, my eyes were with full of tears, heart feeling sad and thinking whether I will be getting chance to meet you again in future life. Having ABSOLUTELY NO idea or no clue what the time is.

Fortunately, I noticed you there in JNU; felt so much happy. One day, I saw you many times on the way to class and library, in midway of Godavari and kaveri hostel at JNU.  Standing proudly and glowing with the energy of your own color and own angel way, just right side of the street. Very few can look at you there but I simply love you. I looked up and you winked and blew a kiss at me. And all I could think about was how you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I admire you. I am so in love, every time I look at you my soul gets dizzy.

When I was in my PG, I thought this was the right time to express my feelings to you and I expressed it so did you. Now I feel, we both were in love with each other since our school days itself, but I couldn’t realize it in that short period. The love I have for you that will be there in my heart forever. We used to meet every day and I kept you very safely in my diary. Unexpectedly, one fine day you got disappeared somewhere that pained me a lot but it was not the end of my love for you. No! Separation is not the end of love; it creates love!

As I remember to express my love I never used three words that ‘I love you’ because I feel if only words could express the love then there are not the crises of people who use these words to express their feelings. My love for you is not just a composition one can easily learn. It’s not the solo in the middle, not the beginning or the end. A promise is what I give to you. I promise, my love for you, will never ever die! You make my life perfect!

All of a sudden, my friends asked me what are you thinking about, get down from the cab. I didn’t say anything, but just gave them a smile in return! I thought, if you ever been in love, you have probably identified and realized the feelings. Anyway, when stepping outside, the eyes are still looking for you…. Being completely honest, trying hard to find out you here, but truly saying I am not tired of waiting for my love! There is so much I could write down of how much I feel for you.

My dear readers, Guess?… for whom I always love to wait…??

Hmmm……  there is not much to think about it. It is none other than my love, my favourite beautiful flower Palash! Trust me! 🙂

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